Holy Rumination: The One Whom Jesus Loves

Recently, God did something for me!! He took a sermon from our dear pastor and revealed something truly beautiful! Pastor Billy was speaking on the rich man and the leper regarding the chasm between the two. Then he mentioned that the leper was sitting in the seat of honor, to the right hand of the host. I closed my eyes to let it sink in, then all the sudden I saw the image of “The Final Supper” become so realistic in my mind. There in the seat of honor was…JOHN, the disciple whom Jesus loves. While I could not say with any certainty how he came to that seat, I do want to share what this meant to me. This little phrase is another declaration for your holy rumination.

A few little things to set context to my tiny revelation: 1st, the Book of John is often referred to as the “love chapter”. It is the gospel that reveals so much about love and life. 2nd, it is the gospel that tells us how much God loves us! 3rd, in this book, John tell us a little more about certain stories with intimate details. But 4th and finally, because I don’t want you to miss this little golden nugget….HE REFERS TO HIMSELF AS THE ONE WHOM JESUS LOVES!!! He loved himself the way which God loves him! He reminded himself often that he was loved by Jesus. So much so, that others would say the same about him…”You know the one, the one whom Jesus loves. Yeah, that’s him.” I can hear it now!

You might be thinking oh that’s nice and really sweet. But how does that apply to my ruminating thoughts on how I see others and especially myself? Here it is….

I am going to look in the mirror and at least once a day remind myself that Jesus loves me. I am going to say it aloud, “I am the one whom Jesus loves!” When someone else says something negative or untrue about me, I will respond with, “I am the one whom Jesus loves.” This will certainly help my self-talk all while giving me a Holy Rumination! I will continue to use Philippians 4:8 as it applies in situations, only now I will include it in my self-talk.

How will this help how I will see others? You have heard the quote that hurt people, hurt people, right? They do!! People who have a poor self image also seem to do the same. They often treat others with distain or harshness. It is difficult to love others if you don’t love yourself. And it is even harder to receive love from others if you don’t love yourself. You have convinced yourself for too long that you are not good enough and that you don’t deserve the good that comes to you. When you love others, you deserved to be loved back, right?! Yes, indeed you do! If you love yourself, it helps others feel free to express their love to you! Learning to love yourself is likely the most vulnerable you could ever be alone. But if you can’t be vulnerable to yourself while alone, how will you ever be vulnerable with others?

I believe that John understood just how much Jesus loved him that he made sure everyone knew it too. I don’t believe it came from a warped sense of self, but instead it fueled how he viewed himself! If you know that God loved you so much that He sent His one and only son so that you would have everlasting life, then you will feel the impact of that love! That is the kind of love that transforms someone, cleanses, purifies, and reveals the true nature of our God! The Bible tells us that people will know we are Christians by our love. I also think that people will see us as loveable when we love ourselves.

The first two greatest commands sum it up perfectly and far better than I ever could!

 “Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?” Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself. All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”

Matthew 22:36-40

Holy Rumination

I know I am not alone when I confess that my mind can be a real huge mess! This mind of mine will convince me that if I think over something enough, I can fix it or manage it! It feels horrible to be lost in ones own thoughts, especially when they are negative. Many people suffer from this and the mental health community calls it RUMINATION. The perpetual influx of such negative thinking does affect your perspective on people and circumstances. Even more than that, it affects your emotional and physical health.

When you are hurting from rejection, lies, perfectionism, disparaging comments, loneliness, stress, the past, or feelings of not being good enough, what do you do? What is your go to method of dealing with life’s inevitable disappointments or failures in your own life? As I shared above, I had convinced myself that thinking about it over and over again might help or fix it. It has never worked. Overthinking something without action, follow-up, or actual communication will keep you in the loop of your own thoughts.

What about how you view yourself? Has the thought ever occurred to you that how you see yourself deeply drives your response to life’s disappointments? For me, I know that when I have not felt good enough my responses to things would be defensive at best, but at the worst moments you convince yourself you don’t deserve any better. It is unfortunate that I spent that time beating myself up due to the actions of others. If I could just do…..If I could just be….If I could….Then I WOULD BE GOOD ENOUGH! WRONG! I was so wrong!! When you know who you are you don’t have to tell others WHO YOU ARE. And when you know WHOSE you are, it all comes into focus.

In order for me to believe that God thinks about me is true, I had to understand that I will never be perfect. It is crucial to understand that mistakes and failures will happen. But before you are caught in the grip of perfectionism, GET UP! I know it is all easier said than done. If I know who I am, I don’t have to tell you or prove it. Why? If I am who I think I am, my actions will show it, and my spoken responses will also give insight into who I am. If I say I love but I am always putting you down, would you believe that I loved you? Would you consider me kindhearted? My guess is, no, you would discern that I was critical or just mean and did not love you.

So how do you talk to yourself? I am going to list some questions below and I challenge you to do a self-check.

  • Do you constantly overthink?
  • How do you view yourself?
  • Do you think that your actions reveal how you see yourself?
  • When you look in the mirror, do you like or love what you see?
  • Do you replay the rejections you have experienced? Losses? Failures? Harsh Words? Lies?
  • Do you often think about your fears? What are you afraid of? (It is probably similar to what we have already reviewed.)
  • How do you describe yourself?
  • How do you receive compliments?
  • How do you receive critique?

Whether you view yourself higher or lower than others, it is rooted in insecurity. Insecurity usually comes from a trauma like being abandoned, abused, bullied, or believing you are not good enough. Maybe it was rejection in love or from a parent. Maybe it was experiencing death too soon in your life that it felt like abandonment. Maybe it is finding out that you had different birth parent(s)! Circumstances too often thwart how we see ourselves and others. Sometimes your life has been altered because you were collateral damage in someone else’s war. Perhaps, life has shaped you to feel insecure.

I have experienced a lot of these circumstances just like you. If you have trusted others, you have probably experienced betrayal. If you have ever loved, you have probably experienced heartache. Perhaps as a kid, we either felt safe or afraid, loved or abused, praised or put down, spoiled or ignored, disciplined or punished, you get the picture. Our experiences shape our perspective on people, circumstances, and our own self-view. But what if you are a Christian? Here are some questions for anyone who is in Christ:

  • Do you believe God loves you?
  • Do you believe what God has said about you through His Word?
  • Are you overly concerned about how others view you or talk about you? (Is it the opinion of others what matters most to you? Or do you not care at all, like zero thoughts about what others think? (We tend to deal in extremes as a reaction to what life throws at us.)
  • Do you concern yourself on how you make others feel with your words or actions?
  • Ask the same question to yourself: Do you concern yourself with how you feel when thinking negative thoughts?
  • Do you constantly feel guilty?
  • Do you ever truly feel free?

Look at the word picture at the beginning of this post then look at the one below. I used a lemon image for the negative thoughts, pun intended! People trapped in trapped in negative thinking do usually have a bitter look on their face. In contrast, I used the infinity symbol filled with positive words to visualize God’s love for us.

Being a former overthinker, I can attest that changing HOW you think will help you change WHAT you think! Even more so, it will change your perspective! Friends and family would warn me upon learning bad or sad news not to get lost in my mind and stay there. They knew me well. The NEWEST me no longer uses that coping strategy. I still criticize myself at times, but I am no longer in the perpetual loop of my former desperate mind. When something has pierced my heart or I am overly concerned about the opinions of others, I take it to Philippians 4:8!

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

Philippians 4:8 (NIV)

Now back to rumination and how we think: Rumination usually includes negative repetitive thinking over something, someone, or a feeling about oneself. So, how can that be changed? First of all, it does not have to be negative! What if you applied the command in Philippians 4:8 to all things possible? What if you applied it to yourself regarding your own self-talk? I sense a transformation in the works!!! Second, you should only concern yourself about what God has to say about you! As a Christian, you do need to believe what He thinks of you! He longs to prosper you and give you hope, peace, love, and the deepest desires of your heart!!! Finally, I think it is possible to get there quickly when you spend time in His Word, repeat the positive verses that speak to your soul, memorize and cling to them!

Beginning with Philippians 4:8, apply the words to every thought regarding yourself, especially to those which develop an unhealthy self-talk! Is it true what you say about yourself? Is it Noble? Is it pure? Is it lovely? Is it admirable? No? Then if anything you say about yourself is excellent or praiseworthy, think about those things!!

Next, I challenge you to look up and list Bible verses that proclaim God’s love and thoughts about His people. Finally, meditate upon those verses and allow His love to become so engrained that your mind is beautifully transformed with a Holy Rumination!

My prayer is that you will truly love yourself and recognize that YOU ARE THE ONE WHOM JESUS LOVES! (That is a clue regarding the next scheduled post!)

In His Love, Rachele Beckwith

Glory of the Day

(A poem written by me on July 10, 2010.)

I am parched in a dry weary land, everywhere I turn there are offers to quench my thirst, yet I remain unsatisfied.

I wander from place to place, room to room, seeking tranquility and rest for my soul, yet I remain unsatisfied.

Time speeds by, the good ole days are only a memory in my aging mind, I seek comfort, yet I remain unsatisfied.

The days are harried, lists yet undone, duties increase, and I seek some release, yet I remain unsatisfied.

When I was my most thirsty, approaching insanity, forgetting all about me and busy in my pace, I met the One face to face and I’m no longer unsatisfied.

At the well marked “living water” I was offered a drink, I partook of one mere sip and I was fully satisfied.

In the room marked “the corner of my heart” I met a man, took his hand, bowed my head, received his breath, and I was satisfied.

On my knees, I begged for the days of old, for my memories to once again unfold. Then I met the one with one touch of his hand I caught a glimpse of Heaven land, he gave me rest and I was satisfied.

At the close of the day, I decided to pray, I poured my heart upon the one who keeps meeting me there, and He spoke Peace, Perfect Peace, and I am satisfied.

On the dawn of the very next day, I thanked Jesus for quenching my thirst, calming my mind, giving me rest and peace, perfect peace, Glory to God I will remain satisfied!

In Him, Rachele

DNA vs Identity Part 5 – Reflections & Revelations


It is so easy to retreat into your own mind when you learn shocking news. When I reflect upon the first 6 months of 2021, I am still shocked to see how much has changed in my world, yet so much remains the same. This thought came to the other day, “Forgiveness is a door to a healthier future.”

Emotional health drives your physical health more than what you eat or drink. We all know that stress can kill you. But I pose this question, “Does bitterness also lead to your demise?” Bitter people are angry and difficult to be around. If one feels this horrible inside, it will begin show on the outside. Having an unforgiving heart is usually what leads to bitterness. Whether the person has immense guilt or has suffered from deep trauma, forgiving yourself and others allows peace to reside within you.

“See to it that no one falls short of the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many.” Hebrews 12:15

I could harbor anger and resentment towards my parents for so many reasons. But when I think back, it was them, both of them, who taught me about forgiveness. They weren’t even Christians at that time, yet held a high regard to the importance of letting go and forgiving. I had to ask myself how my life would be affected if I were to victimize myself by their choices? It’s likely I would be absolutely miserable. Additionally, I would be losing out on so many of the blessings that I am now experiencing.

Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, clamor, and evil speaking be put away from you, with all malice.” Ephesians 4:31

They betrayed one another, details do not matter and frankly are none of MY business. I was their child, not spouse. What happened in their marriage was none of my business then. Plus, I wasn’t mature enough to understand it. Now that I know the umbrella level of their story and the pain they both caused one another, I appreciate them immensely! They tried, really tried for 17 or 18 years! 

“Even if my father and mother abandon me, the LORD cares for me.” Psalm 27:10

If they were still here, I know they would be honest with me. I forgave my dad for being honest with me when I was 13 for the actions he confessed. He spared me the details…again none of my business! I was angry. I admitted it and we discussed it. He helped me to forgive him! He took the time and emotional investment in each question I had. I forgave him and moved ahead. 

My aunt, his sister, tried to tell me things about my mom when I was 14 or 15. Perhaps she was looking to tell me the truth. I explained to her then, that information was not my business. They both loved me! Now, that was my business. After trying to work things out so many times they divorced; soon afterward my sweet mother passed away from cancer. My aunt and I had another conversation after my father passed away and I do believe she really wanted to tell me. It turns out that even she had not been forthcoming with her children either. They grew up believing that one man was their father and he was not. One of my cousins responded with awful actions and a bitter heart. The other cousin still has a wonderful relationship with her father, he chose them after all. She really loved my parents and understands so much more than anyone realizes. But I know it and her wonderful heart.

I’ll fast forward to now, I know the story which began the demise of their relationship and resulted in me. I’m at peace with both of them STILL!! I’m still processing the woman who was the catalyst to their initial split. I am doing well only because I wouldn’t be here if she had been honoring my parents marriage. My dad couldn’t and never did have a biological child.

Their actions against one another were not “personal” to me. It did not and still would not change their love for me. What happens between a married or even non-married couple is not any of the child’s business. At least not all of the details. Sometimes they know or figure it out and want confirmation.

When there is a change in who the biological parent(s) are, there would be questions obviously. I’m thankful for the knowledge I now have.

Ultimately, I witnessed them forgive one another and didn’t even realize just how much. I knew they loved one another yet could not fully heal. Why? Not my business! 

I miss both of my parents so very much!!! Yet, I’m blessed beyond belief to have found a sister regardless of the mister! That man will never know the blessings he missed out on. Just take a look at how much my grandson also resembles my biological father. I also added myself to a picture from roughly the same age as Jimmy in his photo.

Ultimately in the end, I am grateful that it all worked out the way it did. My life has been greatly enriched even though my world flipped upside down.

Abiding Still, Rachele

We Are Not Useless

“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life” (John 3:16).

Always remember from where you have been lifted and continue to look up! From the deepest pits we can rise and from to the highest mountains we can fall. Our all knowing, all loving, Heavenly Father is there to encourage us and lift us when we fall. I wrote most of this in 2009 and I did fall and I did wander. I became the epitome of the prodigal. Avoiding my convictions and doing what made me feel good in the moment was my goal. The years had brought a lot of pain into my heart. Years of what I thought was sacrifice became painful reminders that I was not good enough. I basically felt useless.

I thank you and praise you dear Lord Jesus for cleansing a sinner like me and making me whole. With my whole life, I want to thank you for teaching me Your ways and showing me Your path. I pray that you never allow me to stray and keep me from being useless to and in Your Kingdom. I love you Jesus and I want my whole life to show it. Amen

As a Baptist not only was John 3:16 my first verse to memorize but it is the verse most engraved upon my soul.

My Savior moved not just mountains for me but myself from me and entered into my life. I remember how I was, all of the gory details, but I am so thankful that is the past. I am certain failure lingers ever so closely, but with Christ I am kept in perfect peace regardless of trials and circumstances. I am able to face the days ahead as I live with grateful heart. 

When deep within my rebellion the Lord tapped me on my shoulder and reminded me of His plans for me: 

Jeremiah 29:11, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” I was ready for the future and I decided I was ready for HIS future in my life. 

I was deeply ignorant, but I thank my LORD, He sent a Savior! (1 Timothy 1:12-17) I can honestly say I am chief sinner here as well, although that is not a headdress I would be proud to display. If sinning were a competition, I would have most of you beat; again not a proud feat at all for me. 

God just flat astonishes me! My Savior swept me right off my feet and I am still reeling and relishing this dance. His agape love that reaches beyond all understanding and without limits was expressed to someone like me, sinful, broken, putrid, and hideous. Yet He loved me and all of us so much that He appointed His one and only son to be our sacrifice, bestowing Jesus to us. 

You know the 10 Commandments, right??? Been there broke that. (sighBUT on a more positive note, I believe God wants me to see the potential HE realizes for me and I think I found that Truth revealed in John 3:16. So I wanted to take this time to share with you that all familiar passage. But please I beg of you read it as if you have never read it before and allow the truth of the root words to bury themselves deep within your soul. You will be ready to shout hallelujah, I promise you!

I knew that looking deep into this verse would cause gratitude to overflow from my heart. Since it is a very familiar verse to me, I desired a fresh perspective. So, join me as I thank the Lord for giving His only Son, securing our eternity, and “making us useful”. 

The following summary was created by researching the words found in John 3:16 via Strong’s, and interpreted from the Greek root words:

“Indeed, God loved His creation beyond compare, in such a way, He supplied His one and only son in order that each and everyone would put full confidence into Him. Then they will not be destroyed or rendered useless instead given the exception to the possession of a full active vigorous life wholly devoted to God without end.”

I don’t know about you but that just blew me away! Our need, His supply, so we will not be useless!!!! 

How can we have the full and active life without end if we do not first put our trust in HIM?

How could we not have been destroyed if it were not for the Lord and His ultimate sacrifice?

How could we ever feel useful if we do not pursue His plans for our lives?

How can we not praise Him when He has given so much for us?

How can we not feel loved when the author of Love itself is surrounding us?

He loves us! He loves me!

All because He first loved us! I am speechless and breathless.

To whomever reads this, have a wonderful and blessed day!


Our LORD, The Sovereign God!

Our Lord is completely in control, even when we try to take the wheel. I have had some major ups and downs over several years, and I felt like my feet were on shifting sand most of the time. (This is how emotions, valid or not, can make you feel.) The thing, or person, I go back to is our Lord. He has kept my feet on sure ground even when I have felt unsteady. Life can throw some pretty hard punches and it is only when I have leaned upon Him that I have felt secure. Putting security in another human is risky at best. Being human can be a beautiful syndrome with much abused privilege. We all have a “case” of something. (Pain, sorry, baggage, despair, grief, unresolved issues, etc.) BUT, but, the sovereignty of God remains, whether you believe in Him or not. I do not and cannot believe that we, as humans, just happened. How can you sense something from a stranger if not for an outside force or source? How can one discern the good or bad in an individual before even a word is spoken, if not for an outside force or source? I can’t wrap my mind around “energy” unless it is tied to something or someone. If our energy speaks to another person, then how can they relate if there is no translator? I firmly believe that is only because of the discernment granted by a sovereign source, our Creator.

The following came to me some time ago, my birthday in 2010 to be exact. 2010 was not that great of a year for me. I saw my world crumbling around me, but I had an unexplainable hope. To hope I clung with all my might. To His sovereignty, I placed my trust. It was HE and His sovereignty, that flooded my soul on March 5, 2010.


If you have been rejected: He is Sovereign!

If you have been abandoned: He is Sovereign!

If you have been deeply wounded: He is Sovereign!

If you have felt like a ship without a sail: He is Sovereign!

(btw, if you set out to sea with “emotion” as your sail….there are holes in it. I’m just sayin’…..)

If you have lost friends: He is Sovereign!

If you have lost your way: He is Sovereign!

If you have walked away: He is Sovereign!

If you have done anything that you believe could never be forgiven:

He is Sovereign!

See the LORD, Our LORD, the Sovereign God reigns, daily. If we think for one instant He is not there, we are fooled. Our belief doesn’t make it real. He is real beyond all confines of the mind. He is still there even in this economy, He is still there when the package or person for which you have waited so long hasn’t arrived. What are you waiting on today?

I love the ASL sign for waiting with hands and arms stable while the fingers are moving! This is a great picture with two perspectives: Anticipation of excitement OR Anxiousness in fear of what is to come.

How are you waiting on your answered prayer today?

Determine your stance while remembering: He is Still Sovereign!

Abiding Still,


Mermaids’ Maritime Tales

Tonight, I saw the “flash” as the sun set for the first time in my life!! 😍🥰❣️⚓️🧜🏼‍♀️🏖💃🏼🎉🏝🏴‍☠️

Sharon Slonaker and I got our hook bracelets from Bamboo, Port A’s ( Bron’s Beach Carts) received recognition at Woody’s, and the sunset was spectacular! 

Mermaids’ Maritime Tales – The Dark Side of Beauty

Moored at St. James Island, USVI

On April 26th, 2021, we moored the Star Gazer in Christmas Cove. As I was writing in my journal some thoughts hit me quite hard. I had to post the following on Facebook because I could not wait until I was able to post here on the blog. One never knows what darkness lies on the other side of beauty.

Christmas Cove, St. James Island, USVI

As I sit here alone in the galley writing in my journal, I cannot help but think of a categorical contrast to the beauty before my eyes and the past atrocities on an island just to my south.

Christmas Cove, St. James Island, USVI

We are moored in Christmas Cove, USVI, and in one turn we would be in view of what has come to be known as Pedo-Island. The island owned by Jeffery Epstein and his despicable guests.

Little St. James, on the other side of Christmas Cove

The irony of the name of this cove and the evil which was once lurking to the south does not escape my soul. I pray for his victims and hope they can find the healing due them. The hope and joy wrapped in the promise of Christmas is something that should not bring pain to someone. Then when you consider the beautiful surroundings of this area, I’m heartbroken over the distain imposed by a self-serving & atrocious individual.

I’m in awe of this beautiful paradise; yet I’m heartbroken at the same time.

Heartbroken but Abiding Still, Rachele

This Mermaid’s Maritime Tale – God’s Humor

If you have read the other posts on my blog, then you know that I found out some shocking news this year. 2021 has been anything but boring! In January, I discovered that my father was not my biological father after all. I mean, if you have looked at the pictures then you know…the resemblance was unreal! This year also brought me a sister through this bio-dad. She is fabulous! Let us now fast forward to April 28, 2021. This day would have been my daddy’s 79th birthday. But, it was also Siboney’s birthday!! These were two very good reasons that my heart longed to have the trip inclusive of this date in particular. I needed this time with her, time to myself to reminisce about my dad, now to use this date to have peace with the news, and finally I really needed the time at sea to spend it with my Heavenly Father! (I am a huge fan of run-on sentences…haha, just kidding, but it had to be done!)

April 28th, 2021 began with a beautiful double rainbow, which we thought would be a sign to the last of our daily island rain. Instead it was an all day drenching. Nothing like some gloomy skies to process devastating news, right?! This was the day to celebrate Siboney and for me to find some peace about my dad situation. Our plans were also sure to be enough of a distraction for me as well. We had planned for Cinnamon Bay that day then onto a lovely new private resort for a lavish experience on Siboney’s happy day. By the time we arrived to Lovango Resort, the rain had decided to stay. Being the good crew from a sailboat, we did the next best thing and adjusted our sails. Who wouldn’t do just that? Take a look at the next few pictures and you can tell me if it is just too beautiful to let the rain get you down?! From the rains behind the hills, to the white sandy beach, cotton candy skies, and the window to the sea in Cinnamon Bay (Ventana al Mar Canela Bay), this day was filled with many gifts and blessings. Of course, spending a birthday with your mermaid soul sister, is the icing on the cake! (Pun absolutely intended!)

By now, you must be asking yourself exactly why this is about God’s sense of humor. You shall wait no longer….

Waking up to the gorgeous double rainbow definitely helped set the tone for the day. However, today was still not going to be easy in my mind. I had set the day up to be a bit bad that way I would be happy if it turned out wonderful. Also, this day was not wholly about me and I wanted to make sure that stayed in the forefront. However, I must admit that a certain level of sadness encompassed my heart and soul as unexpected memories besieged me. Some sent me into fits of laughter, while others caused me to search for a space to be alone.

Once we left Cinnamon Bay, which deserves its own post, we moored up to the Lovango Beach Club and Resort. The rain had begun to ease some, so we called for the dingy to take us ashore. Since it was Siboney’s birthday and raining, they gave us a covered cabana for our stay and our own server. Our server’s name was Jimmy and he was from Boston. Lovango was owned by the same people of Martha’s Vineyard. Due to the seasonal employment and the pandemic, they offered positions in paradise to some of their employees. I would work there in a New York minute!! It is stunning!

Here is where my laughter began and my attitude greatly shifted regarding my dad, bio-dad, and Heavenly Dad. My daddy’s name was Johnny but he was called Chico. Bio-dad’s name was….I will give you a moment to guess…yes it’s the same as our server!! It WAS JIMMY! My biological father’s name was James but he went by Jimmy. Upon hearing this particular name, I looked right at Sharon and proclaimed, “God definitely has a sense of humor!! And he wanted me enjoying this day with a smile!” So I had to talk to Jimmy all day on Chico’s birthday!! I am not sure either father would have appreciated the humor but I certainly did! Even now, as I type this post on the rainiest day of 2021 in Corpus Christi, TX, I cannot help but laugh again! If I had the time and the money, I think I would have liked to buy Jimmy from Boston a drink and share my story. Maybe next time I will do exactly that!

This post must be concluded with a little advice from me. This year has not been easy but it has offered and produced many blessings and gifts. If I had not allowed for attitude adjustments, perspective challenges, and kept an open heart I would have missed them all! Be very willing to ADJUST YOUR SAILS in this life whether you have difficult news or the best news of your life. Happiness and joy can be YOUR CHOICE!!! And I must admit, this is much easier to do in paradise!!

Until next time my friends, I am Abiding Still,


Mermaids’ Maritime Tales

We arrived at the airport to be greeted by Carnaval like characters, island music, and festive faces. the first character to greet us was towering over us from his stilts and dancing as if he had two bare feet. the beautiful ladies, donning bright colorful costumes were very welcoming. Their beauty was only outshone by their smiles. I felt most welcomed to the island of St. Thomas.

Captain Tim and our island greeters

This trip was two years in the making, for me and one of my best friends, Sharon. It had been rescheduled until the third time was a charm. We were supposed to this very week in 2020, which was planned in 2019! Siboney, my sweet friend, who is also one of my best friends, was the hostess, chef, and beautiful first mate to Captain Tim. The only thing prettier than her appearance is her heart of gold! She is one incredibly kind, outrageously thoughtful, and sweet mermaid.

Siboney & Rachele
Rachele, Siboney, & Sharon

Tim, our gracious captain, also my friend who is like a brother, is the kind of man with stories that would make you think he was 100 years old. Unlike, most men with stories like this, his are all true. He is as unique as he is accomplished. when you sail with him, you know you have a rescuer at the helm. Tim is a former Navy rescue diver, USCG certified, and a heart as big as the ocean.

Captain Tim Clark
Captain Tim & Siboney

Siboney and I met and were friends from that moment on. Our friendship grew quickly and I can’t imagine my life without her or Tim in it. Those two hit it off from the moment they set eyes upon one another. It was as if their hearts extended outward to one another and drew the other person in for all eternity. It feels my heart with such joy to see their relationship become this amazing journey. They were definitely created for one another. Their dreams and experiences have come together into a union that only God could accomplish. How else would that mid-west boy meet this beautiful south Texan lady? Only our Father can do something like that! Now their lives consist of one beautiful destination after another. Which brings me back to my journey and places me in one of the most beautiful places on earth, The Virgin Islands.

Six women and one captain all set sail from St. Thomas upon the Star Gazer and began a journey from one gorgeous shore to another. This vessel has almost everything one could hope for and definitely all that we need. The galley is roomy and all in one with the salon. With 4 roomy berths, each having its own head, this sailboat provided a wonderful home away from home for the week. There was plenty of room to nap, sun, watch the sunrise and sunset, all while maintaining adequate privacy and together time. This is a vacation I will repeat as often as possible for the remainder of my life.


Stay tuned for more on this mermaid’s journey around coves and bays of the US Virgin Islands.

Abiding Still,